Wright’s Black Zodiac

“Black Zodiac,” the second book of Negative Blue, is rather daunting at times, though that may well be part of its appeal. It sometimes seems me that Wright is facing precisely the same problems I am in trying to come to terms with in trying to integrate what I’ve read into a coherent philosophy of life that will allow me to face those struggles that lay ahead.

The title poem from this section opens with the problem of dealing with memories that do not seem to fit together in any coherent way:

Darkened by time, the masters, like our memories, mix
And mismatch,
and settle about our lawn furniture, like air
Without a meaning, like air in its clear nothingness.
What can we say to either of them?
How can they be so dark and so clear at the same time?

Those who have read widely, or even not so widely, have certainly confronted this problem many times in their lives. While reading the poetry of one master, his ideas seem clear and convincing. Later, reading another poet his ideas, too, seem clear and convincing. It is only when placing them side by side that you realize that the visions are not compatible, that both cannot be true. It’s not only our reading that seems incompatible, though. Life experiences themselves often seem contradictory, leading us to totally different views of human nature or the meaning of life.

Failing to adequately answer such problems, it’s easy to end up wondering if:

The unexamined life’s no different from
the examined life-
Unanswerable questions, small talk,
Unprovable theorems, long-abandoned arguments-
You’ve got to write it all down.
Landscape or waterscape, light-length on evergreen, dark sidebar
of evening,
you’ve got to write it down.

This is a frightening rebuttal to the argument that the unexamined life is not worth living, an argument that Wright seems to pursue enthusiastically in his poetry. Is it merely compulsion that forces us to “write it down?” Do we bloggers gain anything when we “write it all down?”

Although my favorite poems in this section are really the long poems “Apologia Pro Vita Sua” that begins the section and “Disjecta Membra” that ends the section, they seem far too long to cite and analyze here. “Envoi,” though, seems to represent major themes in this section quite well:

ENVOI

What we once liked, we no longer like.
What we used to delight in settles like fine ash on our tongues.
What we once embraced embraces us.

Things have destinies, of course,
on-lines and downloads mysterious as the language of clouds.
My life has become like that,

Half uninterpretable, half new geography,
Landscapes stilled and adumbrated, memory unratcheting,
Its voice-over not my own.

Meanwhile, the mole goes on with its subterranean daydreams,
The dogs lie around like rugs,
Birds nitpick their pinfeathers, insects slick down their shells.

No horizon-honing here, no angst in the anthill.
What happens is what happens,
And what happened to happen never existed to start with.

Still, who wants a life like that,
No next and no before, no yesterday, no today,
Tomorrow a moment no one will ever live in?

As for me, I’ll take whatever wanes,
The loosening traffic on the straightaway, the dark and such,
The wandering stars, wherever they come from now, wherever
they go.

I’ll take whatever breaks down beneath its own sad weight-
The paintings of Albert Pinkham Ryder, for instance,
Language, the weather, the word of God.

I’ll take as icon and testament
The daytime metaphysics of the natural world,
Sun on tie post, rock on rock.

Too often life does seem meaningless, especially in an increasingly materialistic world where “novelty” is highly valued. Wright also knows that thinking too much offers few answers and more often than not results in impassable “dead-ends,” and a resulting sense of alienation from one’s choices.

Someone as widely read in Oriental literature as Wright obviously is aware of the Zen tradition of “living in the moment” to eliminate the buzz of ideas that constantly distracts from “right mind.” But he seems to reject this approach in his rejection of the mole, dogs, birds, and insects because there is “no next and no before, no yesterday” and, ultimately, “no today,” because “consciousness is the result of seeing today in light of the past and future possibilities.

Rather than settling for either of these, he would rather settle for “whatever wanes,” “whatever breaks down beneath its own sad weight.” Then he offers concrete examples of these things, “the paintings of Albert Pinkham Ryder. Coincidently, Ryder’s dead bird reminds me of Morris Graves’ painting of birds that I mentioned falling in love with last year. More examples of Ryder’s work can be found at The Art Archive.

“Jesuit Graves,” Wright’s tribute to Gerard Manly Hopkins, seems to offer another possible answer to life’s problems:

JESUIT GRAVES

Midsummer. Irish overcast. Oatmeal-colored sky.
The Jesuit pit. Last mass
For hundreds whose names are incised on the marble wall
Above the gravel and grassless dirt.
Just dirt and the small stones
how strict, how self-effacing.

Not suited for you, however, Father Bird-of-Paradise,
Whose plumage of far wonder is not formless and not faceless,
Whatever you might have hoped for once.
Glasnevin Cemetery, Dublin, 3 July 1995.
For those who would rise to meet their work,
that work is scaffolding.

Sacrifice is the cause of ruin.
The absence of sacrifice is the cause of ruin.
Thus the legends instruct us,
North wind through the flat-leaved limbs of the sheltering trees,
Three desperate mounds in the small, square enclosure,
souls God-gulped and heaven-hidden.

P Gerardus Hopkins, 28 July 1844-8 June 1889, Age 44.
And then the next name. And then the next,
Soldiers of misfortune, lock-step into a star-colored tight dissolve,
History’s hand-me-ons. But you, Father Candescence,
You, Father Fire?
Whatever rises comes together, they say. They say.

Those of us who love his poems may well feel that Gerard Manly Hopkins has transcended death through his powerful, beautiful poetry as Wright suggests here with titles such as “Father Bird-of-Paradise,” “Father Candescence,” and “Father Fire.” But another possibility is even more intriguing, that the very act of celebrating life’s, and particularly nature’s, beauty is a transcendence. “Whatever rises comes together.”

Now that I’ve gotten

child's drawing

Now that I’ve gotten my official "get well" card from my buddy Gavin, with a little help from his mommy, it’s no longer necessary to sympathize with yours truly.

I promise that I won’t be running without the use of my walking stick, Gavin.

Officially, I have a herniated disk that is pressing on the nerves to my right leg. At the moment, the doctor feels that the problem can be remedied through physical therapy, but I can have surgery at any time if I feel the therapy isn’t helping. (That will probably take some real convincing.)

A Little Quieter than Usual

Despite the rather serene appearance of my web page this week, this has personally been a rather hectic week. Following the earlier advice of a number of visitors to my page, I had been trying to avoid too many hours at the computer in an attempt to relieve the stress on my back.

Apparently such efforts failed, because after suffering a violent coughing attack Tuesday morning I had to leave work early because my back began to spasm. By the time I finally got home, I had to crawl up the stairs and into bed. The pain pills I had from earlier did nothing for the excruciating pain, and Leslie was greeted by a screaming idiot after she came home early.

I made a doctor’s appointment the next day and had to have Leslie drive me to the appointment because my right leg was totally useless. I managed to get into the car by having her push me on my office chair. Once at the clinic, we got a wheelchair, a new adventure for me.

Obviously fearing cancer because of last year’s cancerous tumor, the doctor ordered an MRI. While such a test might have been easy if I had a more effective pain killer, I found it unbearably painful to lie “still” for a half hour while spasms of pain racked my right leg. Resorting to some nearly-forgotten meditation techniques, though, I was able to get through the procedure, all the time thinking that the narrow tube resembled a casket far too much for my taste.

I was relieved, yet somewhat apprehensive, when my doctor called Thursday morning to inform me that the leg problem was due to a “slipped disk” pinching the nerve in my leg rather than any kind of cancer. My doctor referred me to a neurosurgeon. I was relieved to hear it wasn’t cancer, but I haven’t heard too many good things about back surgery. It’s Sunday, and I’m still waiting for the clinic to call me back about an appointment.

Luckily despite the ineffectiveness of the painkillers my body seems to be healing itself, though slowly. It’s Sunday, and I can now limp around the house with my hiking staff if I don’t stay on my feet longer than ten minutes. Unfortunately, it still hurts whether I’m sitting, standing, or lying in bed. At least that gives me an excuse to get back on the computer for awhile.

If the page is a little quieter than usual, at least you’ll know why.

Outside a Small Circle of Friends

I was rather surprised, and more than a little upset, when Shelley responded angrily to Jonahon Delacours’ Riding Easy in the Harness by saying, “Yes, I am too dense and foolish, too shallow to understand all this fully, But then, I am only a computer geek.”

I was sure that Jonathon never intended any such message, but I was still surprised that Shelley would react this way to Jonathon’s entry. My attempt to bridge the gap between Jonathon and Shelley certainly didn’t help the matter, and apparently left Jonathon with the impression that I was attacking his integrity. Apparently there’s something about this individual versus community debate that strikes close to home.

Both Shelley and Jonathon are interesting, unique individuals. That’s precisely why I read them and why I was honored when both of them chose to link back to my site. In this virtual world of blogging, I would certainly consider both of them “virtual friends.” Jonathon graciously helped me to set up this site, and I was honored when Shelley asked me if I would like to join her network when she sets it up.

In fact, I consider most of the people I link to “virtual friends.” I link to each of them because they are interesting people with interesting viewpoints and interesting things to say.

I would love to spend a week hiking the Columbia Gorge with Jonathon, a week walking the Oregon Coast with Shelley, at least a week exploring Canada with Steve Laidlaw, and the same goes for virtually every one on my list. On an individual level I’m sure I would find each of them fascininating.

I suppose some could argue, then, that my list of links represents my “community.” I wouldn’t, though. Although I would l love to meet each and every one of them, I don’t really consider them my “community.” I suspect that if there was a weekly blog meeting where all of them attended that I would attend once out of curiosity, but doubt I would attend meetings regularly. That’s not who I am, nor who I want to be.

Personally, I have never felt the desire to join clubs or organizations. I couldn’t imagine running for office in grade school or high school. I laughed when someone suggested I join a fraternity in college.

Even when I was a Lieutenant in the Army, I didn’t feel like an “Officer and a Gentleman” and hated following the rules of the “club.” I didn’t like attending Happy Hour or going to long formal receptions. I was good friends with a few officers, but I generally felt closer to the sergeants I worked with than I did to other officers. I could never have made the Army a career because I could never have followed a set of rules that told me who my friends could be and must be.