Where’s the Reset Button?

I’m beginning to think I may have to hit the reset button on 2019.  Things are not going the way I thought they would, certainly not the way I wanted them to — and I’m not even talking about Trump’s Reign of Stupidity.  

Two of my grandkids’ grandfathers died in January.  Jen’s father died New Year’s Day and Cory’s father died recently. Although both had other health problems, they ultimately died from heart attacks.  I’m sure their deaths played a part in why I ended up at the Emergency Room at Allenmore last Tuesday night.

My doctor switched my blood pressure medication after I complained of repeated episodes of gout from the diuretics.  About four hours after taking the new medication, my heart decided to explore new territory and started racing up to 140 BPM though I was just sitting on the couch watching television.  After an hour of monitoring it and having no luck getting it to drop back to normal with controlled breathing, I pushed the aFib button on my Apple watch and, for the first time ever, it flashed that I had aFib.

I debated calling 911, but since the pain didn’t seem as bad as it had been during my Father’s heart attacks,  I went to the nearest Urgent Care center instead where they “confirmed,” sort of, that I was having an aFib attack.  They sent me to the REAL  Emergency Room.  Because they sent the results ahead, I was seen promptly and blood samples and another EKG were taken. There were no rooms available, and we were sent to the waiting room.  After about an hour I was taken in for chest x-rays and sent back to the lobby to wait another two hours.  After awhile it became clear that this must not be an emergency because I wasn’t dead.  I assumed that if I’d really been having a heart attack I would have been seen much sooner — since I had medical insurance.

No longer focused on my imminent death, I started to look around. A woman approached and asked us if we had “a dollar.”  I thought she might need to make a call, but she came back with some food from the vending machine, laid down and went to sleep on the bench across from us.  I couldn’t  figure out if she was merely sleeping there because it was safer than sleeping in the streets or if she was waiting for someone who had been admitted.  Though she appeared to be one of the poorest of the people in the lobby, it was clear that poverty was a common denominator for many of the people there, which probably explained why she asked Leslie and I for money instead of someone else.  

There were a lot of very sick looking people who looked like they had avoided going to a doctor until they woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t stand it anymore.  Many doubled up in pain spent nearly as long in the lobby as we did. Mostly I was struck by how many of those awaiting care were young, too young to have to go through what they were going through.  I suspect that if they’d had more money, or medical insurance, they would have been sitting in a plush doctor’s office weeks ago and would have been able to avoid their current situation.  

I was even more shocked as I was finally escorted to an emergency room, the 14th room on the left.  Not only were all the rooms full, but hospital beds lined the opposite side of the hall with patients receiving transfusions and God knows what else.  I tried to keep my eyes pointed straight ahead, not wanting to look anyone in the eye. Meanwhile, Leslie and I both prayed we wouldn’t contract something far worse than what I already had.

We must have waited another thirty or forty minutes for a cardiologist to finally appear.  Despite the Urgent Care diagnosis, he wasn’t sure I had actually had an aFib attack at all; in fact, he seemed quite sure that it was a different kind of problem.  I think he wanted to leave it to me to decide how I wanted to go from there, but I replied that I would trust his judgement.  In the end he prescribed a blood thinner and referred me to a cardiologist, while suggesting it might take a month to actually get an appointment, another sign that whatever I had it wasn’t a true “heart attack.”

Relieved, but still a little shell-shocked by the whole evening, we started down the long hall to the lobby and our car.  Before we could escape. a loud buzzer went off just in front of us and a doctor raced past us announcing that the patient’s pulse in room 2 had just stopped.   Nurses came running from every direction, and we did our best to stay out of their way while still trying to leave without seeing any more than we had already seen.  

When I read “I can count my blessings and still be utterly overwhelmed and defeated at the same time. Just sayin’ “ on Facebook the next day,  I was amazed at how well it described my feelings as we drove home.

I’m a Birder — Today, at Least

Though I describe myself as a “photographer”, not a birder, because I’m not nearly the expert that people I hang around with and spend more time working on my photography skills than my birding skills, I am also a “birder.”  That was a good thing on a recent visit to Ft. Flagler because we spotted more birds than I was able to get good shots of

The first thing I spotted was this Bald Eagle

sitting on the posts usually reserved for cormorants.  I suspect he was a reason we didn’t see many of the usual birds on the sunny side of the spit, though I did spot this male Red-Breasted Merganser on the other side.

Unfortunately, the low-in-the-sky sun was right behind him and no amount of photoshopping could reveal its brilliant colors without underexposing the blacks.

The only way I could identify this loon nearby was by its profile.

I had to walk all the way to the end of the spit in order to shoot some pictures with good lighting and the high tides made it impossible to approach without chasing the birds away.  I ended up capturing a few shots of Black Brant in flight that would almost pass as a good shot.

The photographer in me wasn’t really happy with any shot except this one of a male Harlequin Duck taken after our initial walk and a short drive.

Thankfully, as I’ve aged I’ve learned that not everything has to go right in order to have a good day.  Seeing birds I seldom see at home, basking in sunshine, and indulging in an excellent lunch can make for a wonderful day.

A Day Out at Theler and Port Orchard

January has continued to be one of the wettest I can ever remember, so Leslie and I have been focusing on getting back in shape at the YMCA. We did have at least two non-rainy days this month, though, and managed to get out to Theler Wetlands once.

Birding still seems slow (maybe the birds are trying to avoid the hunters?), and the heavy fog made it even harder to get some decent shots. This male Green-Winged Teal still managed to flash some beautiful colors, though.

The ever-present Song Sparrows show no signs of being intimidated by distant shotgun blasts.

The best birding of the day continued to be at the Port Orchard Marina. Not only was I able to get closer to the birds, but the sun deigned to peak out from behind the clouds. This female Baird’s Goldeneye seemed quite striking after months of shooting with little or no sunlight.

Not sure this female Hooded Merganser needed extra light to be striking,

but I’m pretty sure that this male Hooded Merganser would be striking in any light.

A Quick Update

Just a quick update to let readers know that I did survive the update to my hard drive. The actual installation of the drive into my Mac Pro was just as easy as the seller advertised, a few minutes to install the drive itself.

What they didn’t mention was all the time spent before installation making sure I had the tools necessary to reboot the computer if something went wrong. Nor did they mention just how long it would take to install a new operating system over WIFI. At first, I thought the installation had failed when the screen remained black for a minute or two. After three tries, I finally just walked away to see what would happen, and the system started to install itself. Several hours later my computer was up and running, kind of.

I still had to transfer all the files over from the original hard drive, and that took another hour or two. At least this transfer was pretty straight forward, and I never doubted that it would work. As is always the case when you transfer files from an old computer to a new computer, some of the links are broken. I spent more time than I wanted to logging back into my Apple account, my WordPress account, my Amazon account, and into various other accounts.

Unfortunately, I could never get the Bootcamp partition of the drive to reinstall despite spending $35 for a program to do specifically that. Although it looked like all the files had transferred, Windows would never restart. Not sure if that is something Microsoft had built into the program to prevent moving a system over to another computer or if it is an Apple problem, but, despite several hours of work, I could never get it back up. In the end I decided I didn’t use Windows enough to justify the frustration. When Electronic Arts releases a new version of Dragon Age I may have to reconsider my decision.

Thankfully, the computer seems a little faster and I have a lot more storage space for those pictures I haven’t been able to take because of the constant rain.